What Should I Do Then?

"Don't Judge A Book By It's Cover"

If that's the title for your photo album and these are the photos you're sharing...what the hell should I judge you on?

Hello...hello....hello!

Hmm so these reoccurring thoughts and dreams are starting to get a little obnoxious. I mean hell...it's already been a year since we truly dated...why am I still hung up on Mr. Ryan?

You all know my poor little tale of woes...yes, it's pathetic. Yes, I made a blubbering fool of myself Saturday night...and no, alcohol was not included.

I find myself in strangely nostalgic moods lately. Not just for Ryan even! Why am I missing Mark as well?

Here's my hypothesis: I see Andrew so infatuated with Liliane...and I miss that emotional connection. Yes, I enjoy the physical aspects of the fun I'm having currently. That being said, I miss cuddling up with Ryan and knowing it meant something. I miss being goofy with Hunter - running hand in hand. I miss being able to cry on Mark.

I don't really get those opportunities with Rox. I'm simply another asset to his 'household'. It's fine but I have, and always will, crave that emotional intimacy.

Here's to what was and what is yet to be. Staci - you damn well better be correct about George and UPS!