The 'Thing'

See here's the thing...life is really good.

I have incredible friends. Sure, I've had the opportunity to remember who my true friends are lately, but why is that so bad? It's actually a bit of a favor that she's done. These friends that I have...are some of the most selfless, giving, accepting people in the world - and I'm not just saying that because I'm biased. I firmly believe it. Therefore, here are some thank yous to those closest to me and those who've been there for me lately.

T: what in the world would I do without you? This has been a trying time for the both of us but the amount of support you've provided for me is unbelievable. I can't wait to come home to you, the Condo, our meeting at UPS, Target and Basil Thai adventures, etc. You are a true spirit and need to know that whomever manages to prove himself to you is beyond lucky. Do not settle. Take this opportunity to explore yourself, your world, your passions, your hates, etc. Someone had better work damn hard to get you.

Thank you for your unfaltering support - especially throughout the last 5 years. I can never thank you enough.

J: your empathy means so much to me. I cherish the knowledge that I can tell you anything and be confident that you won't judge me. Very few people are that amazing. You always see the best in me and, consequently, I strive to live up to your opinion of me. I've gotta say, that 'high regard' is one of only a few things keeping me from completely unleashing. I refuse to stoop that low - thank you for being my personal cheer squad both with this and with every other thing in my life.

Roomies: acceptance doesn't come often. I do my best to be a good person; to make good decisions. I appreciate your ability to see that in me. Plus, let's be honest, I love that I can vent and curse stuff out with you and hear your cursing just as loud. I know I can always count on your loyalty...oh and your yummy food too ;) Of course!

B: I'm so thrilled that we've been able to hang out. I've missed you tons and am so grateful to your hubby for inviting me to your party. More than that, I'm blessed to have you back in my life. I only hope that I can, in some small way, add to your life as well. Please, if there's anything you ever need, don't hesitate to ask. You know I'd do it in a heartbeat. You are a truly amazing woman and I'm thrilled for you on...exciting things. :D

A: I'm saddened by the fact that you're leaving soon. You have no idea how much I value the chance to vent to you. Knowing that someone is there with me helps out a lot. It's hard right now...you know why...but I'm grateful for our midnight talks and that exchange of knowing looks the next morning. You are an incredible individual. Refuse to let titles define you. Whatever happens, you will be able to handle it.

Parents: it's been a long time coming but you're finally becoming my friends and not just parents. I doubt that many people have such an open and equal relationship with their parental unit and I feel quite fortunate for that terrible family therapy that brought us together. Thank you for being ok with my 2am calls...my need for independence, the crazy price of my school, etc. You truly are magnificent.

That is all. I am blessed. I am honored to have such a rich and full life. I plan on remembering how fortunate I am every day and, as much as I can, help to enrich someone else's life - regardless of the form that takes. I'm starting with you. I won't go there. There's the stark contrast.

Dear God, It's Me...Devon

What is it about human nature that requires us to continually want something better...bigger...more beautiful..etc?

I don't like being 21. I want to be 25. I want to be 25, happily together with George, being awesome at my job, buying a house, able to rent a car...fabulously me.

How come everyone around me is busy getting married? Having kids?

Sure, being single is fun...and I'd much rather be single than in a relationship that sucks. God - I see far too many of those around too. Here's the thing though...I'm impatient. I want it all now. Of courseeeeee it'll be perfect...I'll be 25. I'll be amazing. I won't cry, won't feel stressed, won't get angry. Something like that, right?

Blah.

If I had someone to do it with me though....a person to cuddle up with at night. A person who's puppy makes walking to the bathroom in the middle of the night impossible without licks. A person who puts on Finding Nemo for me. A person who occasionally lets me into his inner-workings...a secret place I feel few get to witness. A person who carries me to bed where we proceed to eat strawberry popsicles.

What are you doing tonight? Are you watching tv with Jaffy? Are you having a beer with a buddy? Working on your bike? Doing laundry? Already passed out? Making burritos?

Why are you not texting me? Why are you not opening the door a bit? Each day it gets harder to resist the urge to call you...reach out...

You haunt my dreams, plague my driving...and overwhelm my emotions - over and over.

Please...I need to feel your arms around me again...revel in your comfort and contentment. Just let me know when - I'll only ever wait for you...but it sure as hell doesn't mean I want to have to wait.