An Oath of Love

Dearest EC,

I love the way even your presence brings me such great joy. I love your carefree nature and flexibility. If I decide I want to do something else with you...you're perfectly content to come along for the ride. I love how well you get along with Tina...because that's important.

There are so many interesting aspects about you...different flavors if you will. I love getting to know each one - really spending time with you.

EC...you truly are an incredible being.

It hurts to say this but..here we go. Sometimes it feels like too much of you is simply too much. I adore you, yes..but I feel as if you have a toxic grip on me if we spend too much time together. I can literally feel you killing me slowly...and I hate it. I hate it so SO SO much.

I don't like to put limits on our relationship but, for my health and sanity, I'm afraid I must. Wouldn't want you causing me a heart attack now would we?

So, dear EC, I am here...here to be yours...sparingly..which translates to roadtrips and/or every 6 months. Until we meet again...

A Bad Case Of...

In preparation for my trip to Maui on monday, I have taken the last week or so to go tanning. The goal: don't get ridiculously burned in Hawaii. No worries - I've taken care of that ahead of time. I made the mistake of going the evening of one day and then the morning of the next. I'm absolutely regretting it all. Hah...

That being said, I'm not sure if I had an allergic reaction to the spray that had JUST been used before I hopped in the bed or if it was mostly actually sunburn. Regardless, I've got a BAD case of the itchies and scratchies. My tummy looks like it's been attacked by rabid antelopes...or something equally as frightening. Looks like it's time for a little aloe vera and some Dramamine. Shweeet.

Damn you, tanning bed of doom! You make me tan(ish)..less pasty pale but you also cause the itches. Curses on you.

Cuddle Bug

I'm missing this warm and fuzzy friend (and her owner, Ryan...big surprise there)

Here's to (hopefully) next month and seeing the two of them...

When All Else Fades

I've made the big move back to Seattle and am attempting to settle in a bit...definitely missing my city of the salty lake though. I've already got my first trip back set up - next month. I know...kinda desperate of me but what can ya do?

It's frustrating because everyone keeps saying that I'll make new friends..that it'll be ok. Well...I know I'll make new friends and I'm not at all concerned about it. The thing is...I will miss and treasure my friendships in Salt Lake. It's just not the same being so far away. I can't go see Jenna whenever I need to. I can't entertain the thought of hanging out with Ryan. I can't go cuddle with Andrew and I certainly can't go get Kneaders. I'm not concerned about making new friends. I'm concerned about growing apart from my home and my 'family' there.

It'll be ok of course...I'm not worried about that either. I just hope that the relationships I treasure don't become the relationships I treasured

Here's to 'making new friends but keeping the old'...because ya know... 'one is silver and the other's gold'. Or..something like that.

In The Blink Of An Eye

My heart is aching for so many people right now - it's rather surreal. Within the past month, Mark has suffered a tragic loss, Sarah has shattered her L1 and L3 vertebrae, Kait has been in and out of the ER, Ryan has, once more, disappeared, great uncle passed away, and my dearest Kristen's little brother died suddenly.

We're constantly reminded of just how fragile and fleeting life as we know it is. Please...if you do nothing else today, tell those you care about that you love them. Who truly knows if it's the last time you'll have the joy of spending time with them.

For all of those I care about who have suffered a loss....my heart reaches out for you. Know that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

I love you..

The Sad Reality

The situation with Mark wasn't exactly as I'd thought...read this article and make sure to take a minute to remember just how fleeting life truly is. Say "I love you" often and with all your heart.

http://www.macombdaily.com/articles/2010/06/08/news/doc4c0d343b07be2242853336.txt#photo1

A Long Ways Away wrote on Jun 9, 2010 4:16 PM:

" I never knew you personally but my heart still reaches out to you and your loved ones. Your ultimate sacrifice is one that won't be forgotten.

God bless and protect both you and your brothers who still serve and fight for our country. Let them all come home and properly honor your life by living their own lives to the full potential. No more death is needed...

- DCG "

At Long Last

Yes...yes I do believe it's a happy post at long last! Now that certainly doesn't mean that fabulous things haven't been happening but those around me have certainly had their fair share of shitty things occur lately and, consequently, I feel for them.

This post is about the wonders of Utah Pride 2010. Ah yes, I've spent a bit of time at Pride. Last year I worked the booth for 10,000 Villages and had a surprisingly decent time in the rain. This year was much different and better. It was in the low 80's, bright, clear skies, and I got to see the parade!

Here's Adam representing gays who honorably serve in our Armed Forces. I heart that kid, mucho. I'm also quite glad that things are slowly but surely taking shape regarding the outdated "don't ask, don't tell" policy. But, let's be honest...it was never "indated"...it's always been wrong. The end.

My dear Andrew got to get allllllll dressed up in his leather regalia and throw his new whip around a bit. The night before I got to throw it around for A taught me how to use it. I'm not good at all though.

Then he found me and caught me! Eeeeep!

I also got to spend time with my Stacy and Kada and explore the festival a bit. Chatted with a tipsy Matt...who was still ridiculously cute - duh - and even managed to get the back of one arm burned...but just one, mind you.

I love Pride and I love how happy and accepting people are there. Yay for social progress!