Buffet Table

I often get the feeling that my mind is a buffet table...so random...so much stuff that isn't good for me and so much that I crave. Does that make sense? Meh who knows.

Let's figure out what is on the table tonight....

Double Chocolate Fudge Cake -

- my thoughts are thick, heavy, and totally overwhelming. Not to mention deliciously decadent. I'm exploring an area that I've been intrigued by for a while but haven't had the opportunity to discover. Now is different though. It's not 'in the norm' and quite frankly I'm proud of it. I'm loving everything that I'm learning, truly experiencing every sensation, and craving more and more.

Perhaps my cake has a red velvet layer as well...seeing as how my hair has a red layer too! Strange...and kind of a dare...but I'm thrilled to have done it and to see what he says...ooh la la - scandalous.

Diet Dr. Pepper and Strawberry Popsicles -

Umm...I miss Ryan...a lot. The loss and longing hits unexpectedly and occasionally becomes debilitating. I know my role in his life...his role in mine...but I sure as hell wish it wasn't that way. I want cuddle time with Dink...I want giggles, walks, Japhy, just being...

I haven't found anyone that compares to him yet...and it's bothering me.

Why hasn't he contacted me? My blanket is still in his house... My shampoo and conditioner waiting to make me silky smooth in his shower. The toys I got Japhy are there too. Bullet, a random shirt, toothbrush, etc.

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Ichiban Noodles and Pineapple

My Tina is coming to visit! Granted, it's not under the happiest of circumstances but I'm absolutely thrilled to have her here. We shall have mucho fun and I've got a done of secret stuff planned to help the happiness levels go up.

Alright...now I'm just hungry. Let's be done with the buffet.